In her post, Brenda confessed that she thought long and hard before participating because she’s not a joiner.
In spite of this, she delivered a wonderful summary of her seven “aha” moments and diligently passed the baton to four other bloggers.
I was honored to see I was one of those bloggers, but like her, suffered the same angst.
Not in regard to being a joiner, because much as I covet my personal space, I love being a part of any crazy, bizarre, loud, hip, and out of this world insane, won’t you join us, shindig.
Instead, like Brenda, I shied at the thought that this post would be seen as a shameless self marketing strategy.
However, I’ve decided that any reader who knows me, won’t think that at all.
And so, I’ve decided to join this fun event, but with a twist.
Come on, you knew that was coming, didn’t you?
Instead of naming which post I consider to be my most beautiful, popular, controversial, and so on, I’ve decided to showcase the one I felt, “Didn’t get the attention it deserved.”
Because just last night, the Son approached me and said, “I’ve been thinking about getting another tattoo.”
I literally sucked in my breath.
Not because he’s covered in tats, but because I didn’t know if I was ready to repeat what I went through the first time.
When he asked, “What do you think, Mom? Any ideas for my new tat?”
I replied, “I thought I still had a chance of getting you to laser off the first one.”
Needless to say, my reaction caused the heir to my debt to walk away mumbling, “Alex’s mom wouldn’t have said that.”
Well, maybe Alex’s mom didn’t go through what I went through the first time.
And how was the first time?
Read on and you’ll understand.
Does this mean you’ve grown up?
Yesterday my son got a tattoo.
Ironically, I’m the one who’s in pain.
I’m sure my pain qualifies as post traumatic stress.
I still can’t get over the fact that less than 24 hours ago, I was staring at his bare arm and today, my eyes have to witness what I consider to be a drawing of, well, whatever it is.
And it’s for life. No washing this bad boy off with soap and water.
It’s a keeper.
How I wish it was the kind he used to put on when he was a little boy.
Remember the ones that came wrapped around a piece of bubblegum?
I was even against him putting those on, but the little rebel would sneak them in his backpack and stick them on his arms and legs.
He knew the consequences: straight to the bath, no if, and, or but.
His little sticker tattoos went down the drain with the bath water only to return the next day.
But now it’s different.
It’s hard to think I will never again look at his bare, human arm again.
This new arm has taken a life of its own; powered by permanent black and gray ink.
I guess I should be flattered he was wise enough to include my name on his creation.
Yet on some strange level, I think this makes me an accessory to his crime; aiding and abetting to deface his body.
A body that is a sacred vessel; provided to him for his journey through life.
A part of me thinks he’s graffitied his temple and the man upstairs must be very angry indeed.
I don’t buy into the sales pitch that he’s enhanced his body, made it better, or decorated it.
I believe it was perfect the way it was.
My life has changed with the acquisition of his tattoo.
I now have to worry about bleeding, scabbing, plasma leakage, and potential skin infections.
I now have to be his personal nurse; help him to clean it, pat it dry and grease it with petroleum jelly.
I now have to make sure he rests, eats plenty of protein, and remind him he can’t work out or lie in the sun for the next three weeks.
I now have to wonder if some day they’ll stop him as he attempts to clear Customs to verify if his tattoo’s in the tattoo data base.
Will he no longer be able to work for the FBI, CIA or Homeland Security?
Will he buy a Harley and ride into the sunset never to be seen again?
Will he die of some rare jungle fever they discover came from the ink that was used in his tat?
Will he decide that one tattoo is not enough and continue to ink his body until he becomes unrecognizable?
I’ve gone from being the carefree mother of a child without a tattoo, to being the stressed mother of a young man with a permanent ink blob on his arm.
I can’t fall asleep anymore.
I can’t fall asleep because worrying about this stuff keeps me awake.
Could I have prevented it?
Should I have put my foot down?
Refused to pay for it?
Blackmailed him into not doing it?
It doesn’t help to fret. It’s too late.
The deed has been done and now all I can do is accept it.
Accept that the little boy who bought bubblegum just to get the little bug tattoos has grown up.
Perhaps this is the real reason I hurt.
Maybe I hurt cause I realize my little boy is no more.
He’s grown into a capable, strong, decisive young man.
With a big blob of ink on his arm.
I mean, a tattoo.
I am now the mother of the boy with a tatoo.
I mean, the young man with a tattoo.
The kind that doesn’t wash away with soap and water.
As you can see, the idea of having to go through all this again is agonizing.
Nevertheless, I wanted to share it with all of you as the post that “didn’t get the attention it deserved.”
I hope you’ll agree!
Thank you, Brenda, for thinking of me!